i guess if you can suspend your disbelief for a few minutes
like i said, i used to have bad nightmares. a lot of the time it was stuff i'd seen, during uhm. the apocalypse. mostly just getting eaten alive, that kinda stuff. used to wake up and it'd feel like someone had a hold of me, but i didn't notice how bad it was until after all the undead folk started getting taken in for treatment. i think it was probably because i couldn't just shoot them anymore and had to face the reality that they were people, deep down. anyway, i started having panic attacks i guess. the kind of ones where i could hear and see stuff out of the corner of my eye, and i used to be the kind of person to pull the trigger first and ask questions later. nearly shot my brother once.
and i guess full disclosure here, i shot someone i'd gone to school with, before all of the world went to shit.
[somewhat belatedly, she realises that is a lot of words and a lot of things to dump on a person on cuddlr. but, this city is so hard focused on informed consent that she can't bring herself to backspace. she sends it and then, quickly after:]
the tldr version is that zombies fucked me up and i accidentally shot a lad in the head if your eyes glaze over when you scroll up
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like i said, i used to have bad nightmares. a lot of the time it was stuff i'd seen, during uhm. the apocalypse. mostly just getting eaten alive, that kinda stuff. used to wake up and it'd feel like someone had a hold of me, but i didn't notice how bad it was until after all the undead folk started getting taken in for treatment. i think it was probably because i couldn't just shoot them anymore and had to face the reality that they were people, deep down. anyway, i started having panic attacks i guess. the kind of ones where i could hear and see stuff out of the corner of my eye, and i used to be the kind of person to pull the trigger first and ask questions later. nearly shot my brother once.
and i guess full disclosure here, i shot someone i'd gone to school with, before all of the world went to shit.
[somewhat belatedly, she realises that is a lot of words and a lot of things to dump on a person on cuddlr. but, this city is so hard focused on informed consent that she can't bring herself to backspace. she sends it and then, quickly after:]
the tldr version is that zombies fucked me up and i accidentally shot a lad in the head if your eyes glaze over when you scroll up